the sea. the wave. the one.

2010-03-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

As the days passed by, I get more worried.

God, please bless me as I truly hope that everything will be alright...

2010-03-18T02:59:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for many months. The wonders of fb that allows uploading of pics caused me to neglect this blog but it is still a place where I can pen down my thoughts.

Been thinking through alot after a certain trip to somewhere. Sis said don't let anyone knows about it and I guess she is right and she's trying to protect me, thus, I decided to keep quiet about it. So don't ask.

Not that I'm afraid but rather the sorrow of not being able to consult a friend, especially when the outcome is not to be known until a few weeks later. The waiting time is painful and I'm worried. Hopefully everything will be fine and my worries are just worries... till then.

Awwww~~ This is so sweet.. love <3

2009-06-19T14:00:00.002+08:00

KTV at Katong

2009-06-13T22:00:00.001+08:00

We went to Ktv at katong for 5 hours!! But I couldn't sing well coz I wasn't feeling well and was on 3 days mc prior to k, thus, I'm not satisfied yet. So, more k soon!!! haha....

After that, we went to HK cafe at east coast road for dinner. Yummy yummy!!!

Nitezzzzz

Sin's 22nd Birthday Celebration!!

2009-06-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

It's sin's bdae again!! As usual, celebrate for her with QLX but this time round, we went to Science Centre. The last time we went, it was during our Sec 3 exercusion. Oh gosh, we sound so old!! haha.. So many changes there and its a totally new experience for us! In short, it was fun!!

Happy Birthday!! Let's celebrate our birthday tgt every single year till our hair turn white!!

Took lots of pic and we went crazy posing.. haha...

You know, we love you!! <3

Random thoughts

2009-05-23T01:25:00.002+08:00

Took the EQ quiz in facebook.

Your EQ is 162
Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.Seriously though, your whole "Don't Worry, Be Happy" philosophy is really what defines emotional intelligence.You're warm, open, and very optimistic. You know how to act appropriately, even if you don't feel like it.You are a good communicator, and you have little difficulty with personal relationships - even when you're dealing with difficult people.In general, you are successful, capable, together person. You get what you want out of life.

LOL. Initially, I was thinking whether it is true but after reading, it is so accurate. The part on "you know how to act appropriately, even if you don't feel like it", is so accurate.

Sometimes I wonder, should I change because I have been too good in hiding my emotions. Nobody really knows me well and what I'm really thinking of. Sometimes I feel tired trying to please everyone so that nothing traumatic will happen. I know its my fault that I hid all my emotions to myself but I just can't seem to be able to release it, even to close friends.

I need support when I'm down I need a shoulder to lean on when I'm feeling tired. I need to tell someone how I feel. I need to do it but I can't. Maybe my friends can take the initiative... I know I'm talking nonsense, that's why the title spells "Random thoughts".

2009-05-14T10:34:00.002+08:00

心情复杂。

没勇气面对。。。

2009-05-14T09:09:00.002+08:00

take care. see you soon.

Tai-tai outing!!

2009-04-24T16:19:00.009+08:00

Finally exam is over!! Internship starting on monday though, so I have to enjoy every minute of the time I have now. Before I begin with my tai-tai outing, I want to introduce a product to you guys. This is not an advertorial, just feel that its a great product. It is an anti-blister rub-on that you have to apply before wearing your shoes. This is very effective that allows me to wear my covered heels for more than 8 hours without a single blister. Try it if you have problem with wearing new shoes too.

Anyway, went out with my sis for a shopping trip and high tea!! We went to bugis first and bought 6 tops within a mere 1 hour. Afterwhich, went to have high tea at Equinox restaurant. It is located at Level 70, Swissotel.

Camwhoring while waiting to go up to level 70

Equinox restaurant. Splendid view from there.

Some of the food that we had. *yummy*

The view from the restaurant.

All thanks to my sis for this high-class high tea. ^_^

This is the first time watching Singapore skyline. Beautiful and breathtaking. Much better than taking the Singapore flyer because at least we can eat while enjoying the view.

After the high tea, went shopping at Orchard. There's sale at Ngee Ann City Atrium, selling branded bags and shoes. Bought 2 bags and a pair of heels. That's a happy me!! ^_^

The tops bought at Bugis

My hot pink Guess bag. $129.90 after discount.
Carlo Rino bag. $55 after discount.

Casual heels. $19 only

That's made me a happy tai-tai especially when all are sponsored by my sis. How I wish everyday will be like that. hehe...

Ending off with a pic of Shanice

In the midst of doing projects

2009-03-21T01:28:00.002+08:00

Met some irritating people who had made my life miserable. Rushing for projects crazily because of these stupid idiotic people. Don't tell me that you have many major projects due soon, as if I don't have any! Don't give this kind of stupid excuses that even a 5 years old kid funny it amusing. Why can't just be responsible and at least have the courtesy to reply to my emails or even sms even if you can't finish. Don't tell me that you have finished when I don't see anything in my mail box. If you are done, then send it out. What are you waiting for? For the sun to rise in the opposite direction or snowing in Singapore. If you are, get out of Singapore! Don't populate our environment with your stupid last min culture! We don't need this kind of "foreign talent".

Enough complaining. I miss mj sessions with my girls. *sob sob*

Let's rock and roll after our exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-09T14:40:00.000+08:00

Took a personality test. So true. How about yours? http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

In the midst of studying...

2008-11-28T17:55:00.004+08:00

I hate studying!! 2 papers down, left 2 more. I'm going to endure and conquer these papers that most likely will not stay in my mind after exams. how true.

Shall end off with my favourite pic of the day. At teresa's 21st birthday party...

i miss all my friends!

The arrival of new baby girl, SHANICE Teo Qian Ning

2008-10-11T17:36:00.004+08:00

Many things had happened to my family recently but I'm not going to pen down the incidents because I don't want to let these bad encounters to stay as part of my memory.

Anyway, these aside, my eldest sis gave birth to her 3rd child on 28 Sept 2008 at 1200. great timing right. haha... She's so adorable and sweet.

I babysit them while my sis went to give birth. on our way to hospital. Btw, it's shayn's first time taking MRT. He's so excited.

The arrival of Shanice

PS: wanted to upload more photos of shanice but blogger just refuse to let me upload. hiaz.. shall wait for next entry then....

2008-08-24T12:12:00.003+08:00

24 August - Brother's birthday celebration!

Jayna and I! She's becoming prettier!

Introducing my niece and nephews: Shayn (in yellow tiger t-shirt), Shaun (in white tiger t-shirt), Jayna (in pink dress), Jay (in white t-shirt) and my brother and sister-in-law behind. The other 2 are my bro's friend's kids.

Jay, my brother and Shaun

The kids with my mum, sis-in-law and brother

the kids getting so excited over blowing of candles! haha..

My brother's family!

My family excluding sis-in-law and bro-in-law

My whole family!!!

The End!!

2008-08-10T12:00:00.002+08:00

10 August 2008 - Shuling's bdae celebration!

With peiling and peishan! Btw, the chalet is very big!

Back row: Darren, Shuling, Connie

Front row: Peiling, Peishan, Me
Darren is my ex-colleague cum SMU senior. haha. Connie is my ex-colleague too!

Started to play mahjong to kill time! but its very addictive. haha...
The End!

2008-08-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

9 August 2008 - Went to airport for dinner but was feeling sick.

Some random pics with shaun and shayn

The End!

2008-07-26T11:19:00.000+08:00

26 July 2008 - Peiling's bdae celebration at Pasir ris bbq

Guiqi and I on our way there. Went to the bbq after the Project SOS finale, very tired!!

At the bbq, started camwhoring

Our group pic with the bdae girl!

Presenting our presents to her!

Last but not least, presenting the bdae girl and me!

06 August 2008 - Peiling's bdae. Met her for lunch at city hall!

The End!

Project Summer on Sands!

2008-07-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

26 July 2008

SOS is over! No doubt, I miss it. Be it the fun, laughter and even the hardwork spent building the sandcastle. Seriously miss the time spent together with a bunch of wonderful people. And of course made a lot of new friends......

a group pic of us!! U guys are awesome!!

more pics will be coming up soon. stay tuned!!

LOVE
yan

2008-04-30T16:44:00.005+08:00

Some very long overdue posts that i saved as draft and forgot to post. haha....

30 April 2008

Ask a day off from his parents so that he doesn't have to attend school. Brought him out for a whole day. In the morning, went back to my house first to let him spend some time with my parents.

On the way to sentosa. Look how happy he is.

The monkey grabbed food from the rubbish bin and eat. disgusting.

Went to the Underwater World!! Shaun was so excited that he kept running around, exclaiming "fish! fish!" haha...

See the power of a canon camera! able to capture the beauty of the aquarium!

2008-04-27T16:07:00.005+08:00

27 April 2008

Went to IMM in the morning. Brought Shaun n Shayn to this playground at the rooftop of IMM.

That's Shaun at the water playground. Quite an innovative playground for the kids.

That's Shayn at the normal playground. No water for him. haha...

Looks how happy shayn is. They look so cute together.

After that, went to MayDay autograph session. That's shi tou.

Ah Shin. The lead singer.

At night, met shan, eilin, peiling, xia n meow for steamboat at tiong bahru. Can't remember the name of the shop but its quite cheap, considering the fact that there's hell lots of variety for you to choose from.

Bye. ^_^

2008-04-26T15:40:00.003+08:00

26 April 2008

Went to MayDay concert with my bro-in-law, 2nd sis and her friends. However, my bro-in-law and I are not seated with my sis because they bought the most expensive tickets. We are at the $108 seating, fully sponsored by my sis. hehe....

Cam whore while waiting for the concert to start.

That's MayDay on stage.

Didn't take many pics as I was enjoying the whole concert. Very high, very happening. Just like having a karaoke party with all the audience, a very worthwhile concert. ^_^

2008-04-24T21:22:00.005+08:00

Yes, I'm back. Presenting to you, my little niece, Jana (my bro's youngest daughter) with her new hairstyle cut by my dad......

Ohhhhhh.. why so short?

But looks so cute....

That's her new hairstyle. Super short but looks very cute. Looks so boyish.. hehe.. btw, that's the new clothes that my 2nd sis bought for her. cute right?!!

Us at Vivo City. Brought her out for a walk.

She loves balloons. So greedy, insisted on holding to 2.

Last pic of Jana. Super cute.

2008-04-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

HELLO, I'm back!!! (though i believed no one will be reading this boring blog :p)

Anyway, exams are over and I have close to 4 months break!

I only can say exams weren't easy and I didn't really put in a lot of effort, all last min work, especially when I fell sick most of the time. So I guess results will not be something I will be looking forward to. But that aside, at least I'm free and I love every bit of my life without stress and more freedom!! Maybe its because I'm sick of studying, that's why I didn't really put in much effort. This is so bad and wrong!! I'm really going to use this 4 months to find back my motivation, determination and most importantly, focus!!

As usual, I had my job fixed! Going back to the french bank I worked after I graduated from TP but this time round, they increase my pay despite bad economy. So happy!!

Now I'm only left with 2 weeks break before I work till the end of my holiday. Yes, I'm that in need for money!! haha... Btw, my main point is ask me, date me out!!!!!!!!!

Btw, Shayn's bdae is coming soon, have to crack my brains to think of presents to buy for him. Oh, Shayn can walk already!! Consider fast since he's not 1 years old yet!! Clever boy, so proud of you!!

That's all for now. will update soon when I take new pic.

2008-03-19T21:02:00.005+08:00

15 March 2008

Back date to 15 march 08. Went for Meow's bdae celebration.

We planned for a surprise but it failed because of miscommunication. Its ok, Eilin will definitely try on other people. So, those people who don't know the surprise, please be prepared. Haha.

In the end, we just went ahead to Miss Clarity Cafe for our lunch. Quite a nice place, with cosy ambience and reasonable price.

The food that we ordered. *glutton eilin*

The star of the day. *Meow*

*Me with meow* The ballon was the star of the day too!

Don't you all think this pic is so pretty? Taken by me. hehe.

A group pic. (missing peiling coz my camera die on me when we are supposed to take a group pic)

After that went to take neoprint. Its been eons since I went to take neoprints. Totally forgot how to pose, mad rush for change of position.

Went to watch movie, 10,000BC. Quite a nice show. Been eons since I watched a movie. So relaxing. Awaiting for holidays to come asap!!

2008-03-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

Just came back from an outing with the girls (TP) which I shall elaborate in another post when I upload the photos.

Now the time is 12:48am, currently listening to the cd "Greatest Love of All".

A lovely night with lovely songs, just make my mind perfectly calm and quiet.

This is the kind of night that I really treasure.

Alone, with no one, no noise, no fear, no stress...

Only then, I will think quietly.

What is it that I want in life?

To be an auditor for life? Maybe I don't mind because of the high pay and interesting job scope but the long long hours with no social life. Is this really what I want?

I once wish to be a psychologist but reality set in. No prospect, FULLSTOP.

I once wish to be a social worker but reality set in again. Low pay, FULLSTOP.

Now, saying all this doesn't mean I had regretted my choice to study Accountancy in SMU. Just that, I want to assure myself that I had made the right choice.

And again, I will think of my future. How will my future be?

And yesterday, I told my sis that when I leave this beautiful world, I want alot alot of people to come and send me off. This is the last chance that I will be able to gather with everyone. You may think I'm being silly to think of that but no one knows what will happen at the very next second. But this is just some thought, i'm not cursing myself. :p

Because of this beautiful night, I realised I have been typing nonsense in this post. I wanted to write about the music but it turns out to be my thoughts. till again. ciao.

2008-03-13T22:20:00.002+08:00

Its wrong to think in that way.

I tried to control it but still it come back again.

How?

What should I do?

Sometimes something are uncontrollable, esp when you said that.

2008-03-07T17:33:00.007+08:00

Went to Batam beach resort last weekend with my sisters, bro-in-law and shaun. We stayed in a villa which is on the sea.

Its so relaxing and calming.

Looking out at the sea from the balcony, listening to the sea wave while you are sleeping.

It made me want to stay there forever, running away from this stressful place.

Its difficult to describe the feeling I experienced when I was there so I will just let the photos do the talking.....

While waiting to check-in.

Taking the hotel transport called "buddy" to our villa.

This is the so-called "buddy".

View of the villas.

Cutie shaun!

At the balcony of our villa. such a pretty scenery.

Shaun on the comforting bed. so cute.

Having a meal at the balcony of our villa. so relaxing!!! btw, the food there are awesome!! yummy! yummy!

As usual, Shaun again!
Not to forget, Jet Ski!! That's me and my bro-in-law.

Lastly, a group pic of us.

Here, to include a pic of Shayn. (unrelated to the batam trip. haha.)
Shayn: Rmb to smile shyly like me!!!

2008-03-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

ok. I'm back. Changed the layout though i really like the last one which is specially done up by clare. But still want to create a new layout for a new start.

Still in smu, surviving (though almost dead). I will be blogging about my batam trip last weekend real soon once I upload the photos. Will be back soon!!!

ps: i will continue to blog again!! hehe..

2007-01-12T02:07:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i update. so many events again. let me see... x'mas, bdae, countdown, proj, tests, assignments, stress n stress.

I have been packed with lots of proj, assignments and test. they are killing me. but still i'm not as motivated as the previous sem. esp when i start my revision for the test only the day before. this is the worst "last min" that i ever had. sick.... i guess it will be a very bad paper for me. :(

i been staying at home since sch started except for some special occassions. but whatever, i really want to go out n relax but i dun dare coz i'm afraid i dun have the time to complete my work.

clare, i really miss u. the chats that we will always have for hours b4 we went to slp. the numerous outings that we had. the countless visitings to your hse. the special click n feelings that we had when we are together. the forever listener that i can lean against. the forever n ever friendships that bind us together.

really miss u lots. heard less of u these days. but really hope that u r doing well in uni esp when u finally found yr prince. no matter what happen, the friendship will never end. i'm just a phone call away.

its 2.21am now. can't bare to slp coz i love the lonely n slient nite that allow me to think deeply n calm my soul..

cheers everyone! tmr will be a better day!

2006-12-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

finally, i'm back. its been a long time since i update my blog... been very busy during attachment. but now it had comes to an end. everyone is happy about sch reopening but i'm not coz i miss my company, my unit, my colleagues. but its really time to move on and do well in this last semester. just to summarize my whole attachment.....

the short story begins........

when the 5 of us entered into KPMG.... but separated into different units.....

~pics taken when LO came to visit us

on the first day, i'm very very nervous and excited coz its the start of a new adventure.
with a new environment, new culture, new colleagues n new knowledge....
to me, everything is new when i'm in unit A2M....
feel awkward when i'm ard with my colleagues... even though they are super friendly n nice ppl.....

Company party at ZOUK

but everything becomes better when we went to ZOUK for KPMG party where everything is free!!!!

~mi, viven(GA), yau wen(senior), mingli(senior)

~my other colleagues. who are super nice ppl too

had fun-filled time at ZOUK... they are whole bunch of crazy ppl coz they can really drink alot and play alot..... n the whole unit is so united... really had fun with them...

At client place- Liang Court

actually throughout the whole attachment, i'm usually in the office helping my manager. he's a damn nice and funny ppl but expects high quality and quantity of output. he told my seniors that i will be his personal assisstant throughout my attachment. LOL. but had fun helping him.

but during the last 3 weeks, i had a chance to be on job and out to client place to do the real audit work. i'm at Liang court with 3 of my seniors. they are damn great ppl. but especially one (Yen ling). i helped her throughout that 3 weeks.

she been a great "tutor". teaching me alot of new knowledge n skills. n always answering my non-ending qns patiently. all thx to her, i really like audit. other than work, we talk crap while working, entertaining each other in the forever freezing room. will forever rmb u. ^_^

KPMG Dinner and Dance

the very last company event that i attend b4 the end of attachment.

25 Nov 2006 - the Glamorous nite.

~weiting, mi, lee siah

~joanne, weiting, mi, lee siah

~part of my unit, including the partner, 6 managers, seniors n GAs but not all of them are in there so u can imagine how big is my unit but as compared to the other units in KPMG, its considered small lor...

~with my seniors and GAs

End of story....

yes, its the end of attachment. had 2 farewell lunch. 1 on thurs with my seniors n 1 on fri with my mgrs. really appreciate their guidance and patience. i'm really sad on my last day. coz i really can't bear to leave this wonderful unit. really hope that i will join them back soon...

really miss them lots.......................................

2006-10-07T02:47:00.000+08:00

6 Oct--> Mooncake festival!

met up with my second sis to watch the movie called World Trade Center. a very touching show. its show kinship, friendship n relationship with strangers n how everyone is willing to help each other during difficulties... nice show.. i was practically crying thru the show...

after the show met up with tricia, chin hao, florine, sin n her bf.. just some simple gathering on mooncake festival... but i was feeling uncomfortable at the later part of the night. i oso duno why but just can't bring myself up to laugh like what i usually do...

my senses r so strong.... supposedly to be a happy day but when i came hm, my eldest sis msg me n said that my bro-in-law's father just passed away. imagine the time when we r having fun and laughing but at the other side someone is struggling to be alive but he failed to.

although i'm not very close to him but i knew him since pri 2. its very sad to hear this kind of news. i couldn't control myself n just started crying... tears still roll down my cheeks as i'm typing............

i can't imagine if it happen to someone close to me.............. i can't imagine..............

*uncle... r.i.p*

2006-10-07T02:14:00.000+08:00

just wanna post some pics taken few weeks back.... *memories memories*

3 Oct

had a coconut session over at punggol roof garden with tricia n chin hao. that's gona be our usual meeting place. although the coconut drink is not the real one but a can coconut drink instead, but its great to be with them n just talk n chat. really had a great talk. i love the nights that we spent together.

TRICIA... muz rmb to study hard. ^_^

29 Sept

a vodka session over at roof garden with clare, tricia n chin hao. just fun n crazy!!!!!!! we are talking nonsense n all of us drank almost to their limits. vodka is damn strong, it burns my throat. but its fun drinking. let's have more session. hehe....

just some pics taken...

actually i dun wan to put my this pic coz i'm acting retarded but wanna show that i finally met up with clare after so many months.... :)

fun.......... crazy...............

2006-10-02T19:54:00.000+08:00

CLARE!! this post is for u since u said that i didn't update.....

Dear clare,

u r so busy that i can hardly talk to u.... i think this is the most convenient way that i can communicate with u for time being..... :(

i feel so stupid.. i can't seem to be doing the right things.. i always mess up everything that i do... even the most simplest thing.. i'm so stupid.... i duno what i'm doing... i think i'm useless... or rather i'm very useless.... so wat if i can score well in exam.. its nth when compared to the world outside... i'm nw in deep deep trouble... just pray for me that everything will be fine afterall.....

From
yan... (.-_-.)

2006-09-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

starting to feel sick..... *sneezzzz*

2006-09-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

I'm back for update once again...

Westlife concert was excellent!!! really worth the money!!! i was just standing right infront of them lor.... i almost fainted... haha... really enjoyed the show... WESTLIFE rox!!!

next attachment start le. i'm working at KPMG. a really nice working place. very big company n its very organized. i get everything which a permanent staff will get which includes laptop!!! haha... nw really feel the working life. the past experiences in other company only include doing admin stuff which is damn easy lor. nw its really independent n much more responsibility is on you.. i feeling so stress up.

today is only the 3rd day. n guess wat. my senior ask me to go down the client place on my own to do audit. i know nuts abt audit n its only my 3rd day. but actually, when i heard the news, i'm very happy n excited coz i gt the chance to learn abt audit n finally doing sth which i want to. n feel great that they trust me. i think i'm quite lucky. but still feel stress abt it coz i feel the responsibility. n i spent the whole day just doing audit for that company. but luckily no serious mistakes committed so quite satisfied..

anyway, my collagues are very gd n friendly. i realise alot of guys in my dept which is quite rare for audit line. but i get along better with the guys coz they will take the initiative to talk to me. very satisfied with my attachment. hope to learn more in the future which is 3 months to go.. JIA YOU...

but to social life.. met up with tricia, florine n chin hao ytd after work to watch Little Man. a very nice show. very very funny. but the best part is we took alot of pics in Century Sq toilet:::::

that's how i must dress everyday for work which they called this as Professional Business Wear.

*future business woman* that's our goal!!

*love you my dear*

after florine joined us in the toilet.

*crazy ppl, crazy pics* its so fun to be with QLX..

2006-09-08T14:46:00.000+08:00

ytd went to my sis hse at night to borrow digital camera... long long journey... but then i'm used to travel... plus i can play with my nephew, Shaun.

long time didn't talk abt my cute cute nephew le.. hehe... coz too busy to play with him... he's becoming more intelligent n of coz cute cute... he's just 2years 9months old.. but he can speak proper english.. imagine when i was that age i dun think i'm able to do so ba...

but the funny part is when he speak chinese.. its like foreigner speaking chinese.. its so damn funny.... gona improve his chinese....

n he sang a song ytd... the song goes like this:

Papaya papaya hanging on the tree,
1 for you and 1 for me,
shake shake papaya tree,
1~2~3~4~ oh...........

oh my god.. i was laughing so badly when he sang this song.. what a special song that he learnt from sch... *faints* haha...... but nevertheless he's so cute....

took this ytd when we were having dinner at swensens... *cute cute*

that's all... off i go to watch WESTLIFE CONCERT!!! they are finally here in s'pore.... yipee

2006-09-06T16:05:00.000+08:00

my short holiday is gg to end soon. but i had done nth since the start of holidays. been at hm practically everyday except for gg to my sis hse. been waking up at noon for almost everyday. watching youtube everyday. that's my boring life. but nevertheless, i enjoyed it coz at least i dun need to do anything that i dun like.

went shopping with my sis the other day, only manage to buy a skirt n swimming costume. finally can go swimming again. that skirt cost me to burn a big hole in my pocket coz went to one of the shops at bugis junction which is quite ex. but i had yet to buy all the things i needed b4 the start of sip. n sip is gg to start next wed. oh dear. but i just felt lazy to go out. hiaz....

went for my first yoga lesson. was stretching for the whole lesson. resulting in muscle aches till nw. guess i really didn't exercise for very long time. but i like the lesson quite fun.

ytd watched the first episode of Marry Me starring Mike he jun xiang. quite disappointed with the show coz the actors n actresses acted quite badly except for Mike. then the story line is quite stupid. but i shall continue to watch n see if it will become a great show...

till then.. bye..

2006-09-01T16:42:00.000+08:00

EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!

finally its over n i'm back. one word to describe. disappointing.
really nth i can do when i'm not well prepared this time round plus the papers are so so difficult. the past year papers were not so difficult or is it coz i'm too nervous that cause my brain to perform badly but watever, i can't do anything to change it but just pray hard that it wun be so bad.

so many things had happened. sin n clare moved into hostel already. can't meet up with them so frequently. everyone is so busy. but i like their lifestyle. always full of activities but mi only studies n studies. so boring but its ok coz i'm graduating soon. just another semester n i'm out of there. its not that i dun like the sch but just feel like changing a new env or if better back to sec sch time, if only time can turn back.....

life is really different after sec. not sure if i'm the only one feeling so. but life is defintely different. there's no definite class that u will be in. no class bonding. unlike during sec. really miss the days. ok. i'm gg to stop looking back but look into my future. future of accounts!! haha....

very excited coz this sun gona start my yoga lesson. but the yoga mat is so ex. spent ard 30 plus on it. hopefully the lesson will be fruitful then i will continue with it n dun waste my money.

gt this from friendster horoscope. not sure if that's true but........

If some of your close relationships begin to shift soon, this is a very good thing. And no matter how uncomfortable or concerned the transition may make you feel, this is meant to happen. Some friendships serve a purpose -- and then it's best to move on.

a pic to end off. *miss u* tada....

2006-08-12T20:00:00.000+08:00

went to watch fireworks at esplanade on tue with sin.... oh my god... its so nice... n the atmosphere is great with lots n lots of ppl..... we went there an hour b4 n we r already at the back.... can u imagine the crowd... but standing for one hour just to wait for the fireworks is worthwhile.. coz the fireworks were very nice... its mostly red n gold colour.... nice nice... u have to c it to understand the beauty of it... hehe... too bad florine can't make it.. u have miss a great show!!!

just met up with sin to sign up for yoga lessons... we starting lesson in sep... exciting... finally gg to learn a new skill n hopefully it can help to reduce my stress...

i shld be studying for exams that are 2 weeks away... i'm dead... ppl can u all pls wake me up... i can't concentrate on studies.. i just wish sip start nw.... *argh*

2006-08-05T02:22:00.000+08:00

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its abt yr horoscope n its so so accurate... read it n get to know more abt yrself... enjoy

2006-08-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i update.... so many things happened....

so many bdae celebration... but my comp just went dead n refuse to let me use....

gt back AA proj but not very satisfying marks... gona work hard for the final copy....

meet up with sin today... went pepper lunch then shopping.... finally bought a hairband... then we went over nydc for drinks.... so full....

gd catching up session....

clare n sin gg uni.... i will miss them... they gona start a new life... i want a new life too.... i'm sick of poly life... its not fun anymore... its only fun when meet up with QLX... anyone of them can make me feel happy...

i wan a new comp.... mine is so old n keep crashing... i demand a new one... i demand a new lifestyle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

i dun like it when i'm so weak...

stress have been driving me crazy for the past weeks or months???

i have been trying to make myself less stressful but everyday, there will certaintly be some ppl who will pissed me off... its adding to the stress...

i really can't take in anymore stress... pls dun come near me... or rather pls dun do sth that will add on to my stress... pls...

nw my monitor just decided to take a break n ignore me... the proj that i amended this morning is inside there.. nw i have to retype it... idiot!!!!!! n i couldn't print out my proj...

what shld i do????????

why??? even monitor wants to bully me... i really can't take it anymore...

in the end, i just sat down on the floor n cried... until i don't know when...

even tears r rolling down while i'm typing this...

stress r giving me too much pressure that i can hardly breathe

pls forgive me if i shouted or showed u attitude.... i dun mean it... i will be alright after the exam..................................... which is during september.... so leave me alone till then...

2006-07-09T15:34:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to sin:
i guess u will not be reading my blog but i still have some stuff to tell u....

i knew that yr appeal had failed... but u know what, u had already done very well in yr "A"s. really very well... its so well that QLX is so proud of u..

sometimes its just fate that bring us to another path which initially we nv would want to choose that.. just like me.. who will think that in the end i will choose to go poly esp when during sec school, we always say that we r gg to the same JC... worst thing is i dun even know what accounting is abt but guess what, i love acct!! n its sth i gona pursue after poly...

that's y i think that even if yr appeal failed, dun be sad anymore.. u nv know what yr real interest is, maybe after u gt to know fass, u may love it. even if u don't, further yr study after U. don't give up on yr passion just coz nw, life doesn't allow u to pursue what u wish for. must jia you!!! show yrself that u can do it!!!!

JIA YOU!!! u r gg into a new chapter of yr life..

but no matter where u r heading to, QLX is always there to support u and we will nv become just part of yr past memories but instead we will always create new memories till eternity!!!!!!!

from yan

nw back to ytd (8 july 2006), went out with tricia n clare.. went to crystal jade again.. ate la mian n xiao long bao.. *delicious* but clare n i were so full till we didn't eat dinner.. had a great time with them... love u guys.. always so crazy n silly but at least i felt comfortable when i'm with u guys.... *muackz*

c u all hopefully next weekend!!!!

2006-07-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

i know that i have neglected this blog that most of my frenz don't bother to look... but..but... i had no choice. been doing projects till 5pm or 6pm daily. n when i'm at home, i will be doing research, tutorials, etc etc. so many things to do. hiaz... been slping late for many days. exams are still far away but i'm already so stress!!!

nw not much interest in watching tv except for yu le xin wen. its so not me coz even during exam period i will still watch tv. *stress* so many outstanding things.. *argh*

i know i'm very late but i still must say that... went out with clare, florine n tricia last sat. we went KBOX then to crystal jade... being with them was so crazy n fun!!! especially during kbox, we were singing old songs and started having lots of actions... cam whoring is a must!!! haha... at crystal jade its digging secret time.... hehe... lots of fun with them.. love being with them... :)

*meet out soon*

2006-06-24T00:53:00.000+08:00

wanted to update this blog for a very long time le but blogger just refuse to let me update. i dun know what's the pro. nw giving it another chance.

suddenly feel like blogging but i also dun know why.. this 2 weeks have been going to sch almost everyday to do project. it's not a holiday for us but i like it this way, doing things at my own pace... not rushing with time n getting a lousy result..

i still can't over with my test. i'm a failure.. nv felt so bad after the term test. i just felt so lousy. i cried. i can't take it. its like the stress have been pressing me too hard. driving me crazy. i know others will think that its only a test, i still can work hard in exams but still sometimes its not so easy to get over. maybe i have put too much pressure on myself, giving too high expectations. like others said.. the higher u expect, the more disappointment u will get. but life is like that isn't that true?? we can't say that we dun like studying then we give up on it... or we dun like working then dun work just loitter ard??? can we???

its just a dream for everyone.... a dream that will nv come true coz that's life...

i just can't wait to graduate n stop studying but that means i gg to join the work life which i hate. i wish i'm able to enter my dream n nv come back... somewhere i can do things i like.................

suddenly i just miss QLX alot... i dun know why.. the time that we play tgt, the time that we quarrelled, the time that we study tgt, the time that we cry tgt.... so many precious memories coming back... i hold them close to my heart... everytime i'm happy or sad, i will always think of QLX first.. without them, i can't imagine how my life will be for these years..

7 years with clare n sin... 5 years with tricia, mao, florine n teresa....

these days r the best in my life... we dun look down on each other... we dun backstab... we dun need to wear a mask when we r tgt... we had seen each other the bad times as well as the good ones... tricia always say not many ppl r like us, 7 ppl holding close to each other. i always feel blessed when i heard that....

even if we can't meet out oftenly, even if we r busy with our own things but my heart still have a place for QLX... coz i believe in true friendship!!

for xia: still can't get used without u in the same class as me.. its different.. u r my organizer, always there to remind me of deadlines coz i'm always so forgetful.. always go hm take bus 15 tgt.. always my best partner.... really like working with u.. nw we rarely meet.. really miss pulling yr hair although i dun like others to touch my hair... hehe... if u were in the same class as me, u will be happy too?? not that stressful??? i know u r gg thru a hard time nw.. but dun worry i'm always here to help u... call me anytime.. :) things can be done if u believe it!! JIA YOU!!!

2006-06-09T02:07:00.000+08:00

b4 i update tonight's events.... go to this webbie and read yr horoscope... its 99% accurate...

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2006-05-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog abt so many things but nw i dun have the time to do it. booooo... i'm so sorry that i didn't update my blog for so long coz too many things happened. will try to update it after my assignment on monday...

i came in just to say sth... i really miss all my frenz!! really!! was not able to meet up with u all for so long.. everyone is busy with sth.. i really want to meet up with everyone but i can't coz my studies have been taking up all my time.. i really wish the 2 weeks break will come soon!!

frenz who are reading my blog... muz ask me out if u all gt any outings or watever even for a dinner... i will really treasure that little time spend tgt...

i simply can't do without frenz...

2006-04-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

I'm extremely happy!!!!!!!!

i tot my dream is gone!
i tot all my efforts is useless!
i tot of giving up!

but guess wat... i receive the letter from TP... the one that i have been waiting n waiting n waiting... oh dear! i'm so happy!

tears blurred my vision as i read the letter again n again...
no one can understand my feelings...
maybe some ppl will think i'm insane...
but it doesn't matter as long as i'm happy!!

I'm also happy coz my close frenz receive a letter from NTU today!
she's been accepted by NTU!
she's has a place in NTU business!

she said that she's waiting for me in NTU!
u duno how these words had touched my heart!
u gave me lots of encouragement!
though u are very gd but u still owe me a treat! hehe....

We will work hard tgt even though our interests maybe different!!

CONGRATS to Clare n Yan!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

just came back from JJ party... he's super cute... i'm fainting lor...

he's my ideal guy... i like cute guy.. JJ really make my heart melts... oh dear... how??? i keep thinking of him... just feel like falling in love with him... hehe...

isn't he very attractive...

dun misunderstood.. i'm not a crazy fan who go ard buying all his stuff.. attending all his concert n following him... but i'm just so attracted to him... how i can fall asleep tonight... oh dear...

i forgot to mention that Jun yang went to the party too... he did not perform but went up the stage to say a few words.. Those who are jun yang crazy fans... listen to this... his album will be out in may or june... JJ will be working with him, helping him to write songs, etc... JJ even help him to record songs... so i guess jun yang's album will be an impressive one coz of the help of JJ.. hehe.... so crazy fans of Jun yang wait for his new album!!!

2006-04-23T23:25:00.001+08:00

2006-04-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

2006-04-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

This is the day (23/4/06)... the first time i saw my dad cried....

2006-04-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

~FrAgIlE~

went to watch fragile with clare n florine.... its a horror movie... as usual i'm armed with a jacket that i prepared to use it to cover my face.. but instead poor florine who sat beside me had to tolerate my fear... i grabbed hold of her hand and lean against her shoulder staying as close to her as possible... so sorry abt that.. just that i'm too nervous n scared...

actually i didn't plan to see the ghost face coz whenever it appears i just close my eyes but then... hiaz... i still see it "accidentally". not very scary face...

but it didn't turn out to be a scary show but a very touching show...
i cried...
tears rolled down uncontrollably...
i believe there's love in this world!!

"You were there with her till the end when she needs you. she knew it"

2006-04-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

just a short post on the night out with the gals....

we went marina sq.... we didn't do much..
just had dinner at Hans plus some shopping.... n a crazy photo taking at mac....
but this is what i treasure...
this is what i call friendship...
with this group of crazy frenz...

done by clare.... hehe.... lazy to post all the pics...

2006-04-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

i know i'm late to blog abt this but no choice coz my bro stole my monitor away... till nw then return.... soon, i'm gona change my tag board too coz tricia complain abt my poor tag board... =)

went out with clare n tricia on 1 apr...
went to kbox...
take neoprints....

after that clare went off .... so tricia n i went shopping but we just couldn't kick the habit of taking photos.. haha....

what more can i say...
its more than friendship...
its more than what we can see...
its all about heart...

2006-03-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

yes.... isn't my blog skin nice?? the skin is so suitable for me coz i love taking pics... hehe.... n the colour too..... its so perfect.... hehe.... but the thing is its not done by me... i didn't contribute any single thing to this new skin.... hehe....

work has always been the same... but i like the ppl there... friendly...

oh ya!! forgt to mention that i bought roller blade... yipeee.... anyone keen to go for a blade can ask me along... i wouldn't mind blading for every single day... haha.... n i finally make a new specs... its blue colour.. my eldest sis also bought the same one....

that's it... my life is real boring...... booooooooooooooooooooooooo

2006-03-21T20:27:00.001+08:00

Lol... finally i'm back.... yes.. i know its been a long long long time since i update this pathetic blog... hehe... n clare this is what i will use to repay u... which is to update more often....

anyway, nth much on my life....just working n working n working n i'm so tired..... booooo

plus some unhappy stuff happened but its over n i will not talk abt it anymore... i will just simply forgive n forget....

another thing will be results... satisfied with my result.... but my gpa only increase by a pathetic 0.01. yes.. its very pathetic.... hiaz... hopefully i can get DHL.... hopefully.... *dreams*

n yes... my favourite place nw is Hard rock cafe.. anyone want to go there can just call me anytime... hehe.... i love the band or maybe just the guy... he's so cute... i named him as dinosaur... hehe... oh yes!! tricia, when r u free to go n see dinosaur?? don't u miss him?? hahahaha.....

look at this... one of the outings at Hard rock cafe with clare n her frenz.....

what more can i say... 7 years of friendship n we r still counting... :)

A big roung of applause to clare chow!!! wahaha... thx to her for designing a blogskin for me... its mine... yippeee!! n i promise i will update more often.... isn't the skin nice??? i just simply love it...

2006-03-21T20:27:00.000+08:00

2006-02-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

I'm back!! Exams are over.... but just forget abt it.. its so disappointing... hiaz...

so many things happened... so disappointing... so sad... *sob*

met up with clare n sin just nw.. we went to one of the restaurants at pasir ris beach.. its the 2nd time i went there.. i just simply love that place.. with the music... with the atmosphere.. the food is great too... we order alcoholic drinks too but i guess the drinks are too dilute.. -_- plus plus clare n sin dedicate songs.. i chicken out coz i'm embarrased... haha.... maybe next time..

had a great talk... felt so great after talking.... got to have more outings... it been so long since the 3 of us came out.... must really treasure the times we spent together.... lastly, all the best on wed.. i know u all can make it!!! cheers!!!

i simply love the 2 of u... hehe....

2006-01-28T12:31:00.000+08:00

so many things to update....

26 Jan 06
my hospi presentation is done!! yipee!! its not as difficult as what i thought... maybe coz we are the first group n no one shoot us qns except for Mr Fung. but the other 2 groups were struggling through the qns asked... *poor thing*

after presentation, went tm with eilin, xia n peiling. went to eat KFC... our favourite.. but can't finish. after some shopping, we went to cafe cartel for supper..... *pics speak more than thousands words, enjoy*

our ice cream *nice nice* *yummy*

after that we started taking pics... or shld say eilin n i.... wahahahaha

we are "mountainous" ppl... so surprised to see peas.... haha

*i was forced to take this pic* looks retarded.... -_-"

eilin wants to kiss me.. oh my god.. *xin fu*

nw its my turn... but... but.. eilin rejected it... *sob sob*

but in the end... she gave up n allow me to *muackz muackz* hahahaha

27 Jan 06
went to paint nail polish with eilin, xia, shan n meow... but guess where we went to paint our nails??? hehe.... we were in the school library project room... hahaha.... eilin had this special nail art chop that can chop the nail art onto the nails... damn nice n ex tooo...... haha.....

that's me with my undone nails......

that's our end pdt.. *nice nice*

after that went to meet my sis to go chinatown... wow.. bought lots of things...
-2 bags
-earring
-necklace
-2 tops
-nail art sticker

the things are so damn cheap lor.... gd gd.... hehe.....

that's all for the update... last but not least.........

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
Get lots of ang bao!!!!

2006-01-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

finally, IF n CMA tests are over... but guess i will score badly...

so many things had happened in my family. too many things. things that maybe my frenz wun experience them coz they simply dun hv siblings that are married. things that really see the different side of your family. the problem is getting bigger n bigger. cold wars among them. but mi stuck in between. i dun know what to do coz obviously i'm not an expert in those in-law relationship. its frustrating coz the atmosphere is tense. my mum say maybe no one will come back for reunion on New year's eve. shocked to hear that. but i told my mum being a human is difficult coz u can never please everyone. when u please someone, the other get jealous. yes, humans are just like that.

hiaz... he is unhappy with them. she is unhappy with him. everyone is unhappy with someone. what is this, when i'm calling this my family. i cannot say that my family failed to communicate neither i can say that my family had been very open with our feelings. but at least my parents tried to talk to us. but nth had changed. it had not get better or maybe worst? i dun know. i hate it. no one is totally at fault but defintely there's someone who triggers this problem. but i'm gg to shut up if not my family will go crazy. wat a start to 2006. i shldn't had made resolution coz things goes the wrong way.

enought of complaining. just some photos taken when eilin n i went to ECP.....

once a stranger, once a friend...

lastly, hopefully the sea will wash away my troubles.....

2006-01-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

i really understand how things ard u will changed so fast that no matter how well u are prepared, there are always things that u are unable to accept. its not that i'm unrealistic or could not accept the facts n rather believe in miracles... but sometimes u just wish for sth.... sth that could changed the facts.... sth that u wish to happen.... i know miracles are rare or dun even exist but still being unprepared n not able to accept the facts, i wish...... i wish for a little miracle......

family had been my priority n occupied most of my life.... i treasure them.... but when things really happen, i don't know what to do n how to console them.... when frenz approach me, i will try my best to give them advice or just listening to their pro but when it comes to family, i couldn't bring myself to do that.... i cry when i think abt it... i cry when i talk to clare abt it.... i will cry even b4 i console her.... thus i don't even dare to talk to her nw..... i dun wish to add to her burden or sadness but i wish to help..... but i couldn't think of ways to help her but just praying for a miracle.... n please god if u see this.... hope that u will give our family a little miracle.................................

2006-01-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!!

I know i'm abit late but nevertheless still wanna wish everyone a happy new year!! n hopefully everyone had a great start for 2006. everyone been talking about new year resolution but i never really set new year resolution b4 coz every year the things that i wish for is the same so nth special abt it lor.....

clare told me a great celebration for the countdown of new year will means that the year will be good n smooth sailing.... but both of us agree that its bull shit..... but still it great to spend with yr loved ones on this day coz in the future when u look back it will be a fantastic memories.....

this year i went to ABC stout countdown concert at kallang indoor stadium.. i know everyone will not know abt this concert but then i had no choice coz my sis wanna see grasshopper (a group that is not in my generation though). i told clare i'm gg to an auntie's concert... -_-" n i'm right coz the audience are 20 years & above...

that's me n my sis b4 the concert start.... we are bored from waiting n that's the result when i bring along the camera.. haha.....

but i enjoyed the concert coz i know most of the songs n i bet most of u do...... especially the performance by grasshopper... they are the best dancer i ever ever seen... their dances much much hotter than any other younger singers........ i'm surprised abt it...... anyway i realise that celebrating a new year countdown doesn't matter where u go or what u r watching... its the person that u are celebrating with is most impt..... n its great to be with my sis.......................

after the concert, we took a cab down to orchard road.... n there's so much bangalas... luckily, i took a cab n drop directly at the swensens at Crown Prince hotel so i'm safe........ haha...... n yes.. mi n my sis went to swensens for supper at 1 am.......

that's us........ its great to end off the day with a great supper..... wahahahahahaha

2005-12-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

i'm back from X'mas! these few days are so meaningful n fun....

24 Dec-->X'mas Eve

X'mas party at my colleague's hse. but b4 that i went to bugis to get a bag for my sis's bdae... but the shop close down... i was so panic coz i couldn't think of another thing to buy for her. so i walk round n round bugis street n finally found the bag that I wanted to buy.... luckily....

after that went to my colleague's hse at tampines....

On our way.......

there's so much food there but then i'm sick so i don't dare to eat too much in case i vomit again...... but nevertheless enjoyed myself there.... n gt some presents too... hehe.....

25 Dec-->X'mas!!

Yipee... its x'mas....

the B'dae gals!!! hehe.... n my pretty x'mas tree...

my sisters....... n me....... MERRY X'MAS!!!

see the foods.... we have pizzas, bee hoon, curry chicken, fishballs..... n SwensenMango Ice Cream Cake!!! yummmmmmmmy

last but not least.... see... he's so cuteeeeee......

After the delicious meal, its time to give out presents... i receive red packets from my eldest sis, bro n parents.... then 2 drama dvd, handphone pouch from my 2nd sis........ thx......

me n my 2nd sis oso bought presents for the family.... my nephew was so happy n excited.... he tear the wrapper bit by bit..... n when he finally see the presents, he was jumping ard.... haha.... so cute.... wat a wonderful time to spend with my family.......

After that, went to meet eilin n peiling at orchard...... we went to a cafe at cineleisure.....

some of our foods.... nice nice... but we couldn't finish them..... abit wasted

that's me.... hehe... with the root beer bottle.....

the 3 of us.... *great frenz*....... *let's cheers!*

mi n eilin..... *feeling the sweetness of root beer*

how abt some artistic photos...... *thinking deeply*

mi n eilin again........... see my root beer float... is so damn big......

mi n peiling....... *let our bottle kissssss*

wat a nice mudpie....... yummy..... we couldn't resist anymore.....

my bdae cake.... hehe........

after eating, we went to heeren to take neoprints.... so tired coz we got to stand up n kneel down so many times.... but the pic turn out to be very nice but too bad my scanner can't work.....

*Our Adventure* we took this in the middle of the road..... we took pic when there's no car on the road.... hehe.... so fun.....

After that peiling went hm so eilin n i walk down orchard road n took some pics......

Dec 26-->Boxing Day

went to clare hse in the evening for my bdae celebration.... receive presents.... thx! n the 2 gurus went crazy again thinking that they are singer n started singing n dancing.... can u imagine my sufferings...... wahahahaha

after that we went to the nearby restaurant to eat.... the food not bad esp the tom yam soup..... went back clare's hse again to cut cake.... n we chat till 11 plus.... its a long time since we are able to sit down n talk.... its great... almost miss my bus though.....

2005-12-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN... ... ... ... ho ho ho... ... ...

hehe.... term tests are finally over... its a long time since i can take a break especially with so much things happening.... all the papers are managable, not as hard as i expected... luckily coz i was feeling so sleepy while revising.... anyway i'm glad its over!!!

straight after the last paper, I went to JB!! its been a long time since i took a bus to JB coz normally my sis will drive her car but this time its only my parents n me.... but its so easy n near to go... i took ard 1 hr plus to reach JB... its damn fast..... went to cut my hair at city sq... yes. i cut my hair but everyone say there's no different.... sad.... then i bought a pair of sandals... hehe.... i like it at first sight.... then after that went to eat seafood... oh no... its so delicious n yummy.... u can't find that in s'pore... its so fresh... so tasty.... so juicy.... so CHEAP!!!

nw.... reflection time......

Enrico came back from Aust on 14 Dec to 19 Dec... its been 2 n half years since i saw him... so long... he changed alot especially the way he speak.... hmmm.... more like an australian... haha..... but sadly, i was preparing for my term test when he came back so i could only meet him twice... feel so sorry abt it... but i make it up by going to airport to fetch him even though i was on MC.... hopefully he will come back often... enrico if u see this, muz negotiate with yr mum to allow you to come back to s'pore......

nw..... as my title suggests... X'mas is coming... everyone is saying that its a special day especially to spend with love ones n exchange presents... but for me its a much much special day.... i know everyone know abt this but still i wan to say it again.... wahahahahaha.... its my 2nd sis n mine bdae.... yes. both of our bdae falls on Xmas day... for those who dun know, we are not twins.... she 7 years older than me.... hahaha... n i'm finally gona be 18...

someone just ask me for my wish list... n i dun know what to say.... i realise there's nothing special that i wish for... yes. so boring..... all those stuffs like bags, accessories, etc are nothing special.. i mean everyone will buy it during normal days.... but there's one thing i really wish for n money can't buy it... that's is hopefully things will go smoothly for my family.... every single thing.... esp my dad........................................

other than wish list, its time to spend with love ones... hehe... gg out these few days to enjoy myself before i start work next week.....

Hopefully, this xmas will be a special one......

i gonna do my online test.... bye.....

2005-12-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

UNLUCKY!!

How unlucky can one person be??

I know maybe i'm not the most unlucky person in the world but its enough to kill me..

First, I'm down with high fever on sunday.. highest temp at 39.2....... since poly, i have not seen a doctor lor.... wasted $30.... anyway he gave me 1 day medicine but i still went to sch on monday coz of that interview roleplay... my frenz say i look pale... i guess so since i only ate half of the apple and 3 spoons of porridge..... and it affected my mood for studying... arggggghhhhhh

Second, On monday day, i realised i'm allergy to the pain killer and my eyes start to swell... at first only small bubbles start to form ard my eyes but after awhile, they merge and both of my eyes are like gold fish..... its so damn ugly... my sis was so shocked to see me like this and immediately help me to find an available clinic because its already 11 plus at night... then we took a cab down lor.... the doctor gave me an injection.... but i didn't know he will inject at my Ba****side... hehe... but i'm not scared of injection so i dun feel any pain at all but wasted $65 again.... the doctor gave me 2 days MC... at least i can do some reading at home.....

but because of this.... i realised that my frenz are so caring.... so touched.... thx to everyone who sent yr concern.... really appreciated it!!!

Anyway there is one good new.... my eldest sis is pregnant again... wahahaha..... i'm so happy... another baby is coming to my house again..... Yipee............

shall update soon....

2005-12-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

Miss u. I really miss u a lot. this trip really made me realised how much i need u.

I miss yr laughter. I miss yr silly actions. I miss yr dance n singing in front of us. I miss yr nagging. I miss the quarrels that we never failed to have. I miss the times when u help me with my work even though u r already busy with yrs. I miss the times we went shopping tgt. I miss the times when we set up xmas tree tgt n getting everyone a xmas gift. I miss the comfort when u slp beside me coz i'm afraid of sleeping alone. I miss yr smile. I miss yr voice. I miss u....

we have the same bdae but we totally different. u r hot tempered while i'm opposite. u r outgoing but i'm opposite. u r sporting but i'm opposite. we never failed to quarrel over silly things every single days. nevertheless u r still my sis... a great sis...

although we are so different in character but our thinking always connect. we speak at the same times with the same exact words. we laugh at stupid things at the same times. we pick the same food at the same times.

I really need u nw. nobody know n understand what i'm gg thru nw. i'm so lonely. u r coming back soon. but i really can't wait. i need u NOW.

i'm so dependent on u nw. i can't imagine in the future when u r getting married n move out of the house. rmb that time when my eldest sis moved out of our house after getting married. we cried. maybe others think we r stupid n silly but nobody will understand how close we are n how much we needed each other n how much we treasure each other. the times we spent in our old house slping in the same room n 3 ppl squeezing on a single bed.

2005-11-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

i hate it.................

i realize i'm such a petty person n get jealous so easily.......

i'm jealous when i lost the attention they once gave it to me....

i'm jealous when i feel that someone close to me is getting farther away from me..........

i'm jealous when someone compares me with another person coz i always feel i'm useless when he did that..........

i'm jealous over the world's smallest matter.............

y am i like that.....

i dun like it at all...........

it makes me feel so ashamed of myself..........

not just that i cry easily...........

i cry when i'm angry..........

i cry when i'm jealous.........

i cry when i'm sad................

i cry over everything.............

tears just roll down my cheeks even b4 i know............

i wish to control it but i can't...........

i dun like the way i am...........

i hate it............................................................

2005-11-22T15:07:00.000+08:00

long long time never update le.... i'm finally back here!! nth much happen since sch reopen... so much stuff to do but so little time... i gona die le.... but put work aside, i have a great sat last week.... i went out with QLX n took ard 200++ pics.... haha.... enjoy looking at the pic... hehe...

that's me... hehe... i can't stop taking pic when i c a camera... pls dun say that i'm zi lian coz i'm not... :P

Mi, clare, sin. teresa n tricia went to kbox at paradiz centre... then i started to snap photos again... wahahahaha... tricia too but she deleted most of it... the chicken chop is big n nice... yummy!!!!

After kbox, we went to the Istana Park n continue to take pic.... lots of it.... haha... these r only s small small part of it.... hehehe

After that, we went to Singtel Bldg to cut cake for clare's n teres'a bdae... thereafter we continue to take photos again!! we will never get sick of taking photos.. hoho...

QLX.... they are priceless.....

Dun offend anyone of us... if not................................. he he he....

2005-10-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

finally i'm updating my blog... been doing nothing during the weekdays.....

but friday, i went out with my sisters, bro in law n cute nephew.... we went to the pasir ris beach for our dinner, not the usual fisherman village that we went but went to a small restaurant by the beach... the place is very dim n u can hardly see clearly.... while we are having our dinner, classical music accompanied us.... hehe... after our dinner, we sat there n enjoy the ambience... the most romantic part is that my bro in law dedicate a song for my sis.... its a great surprise coz none of us know that he went to dedicate song..... haha.... sometimes married couple can be romantic too.....

after that dinner, went to my sis's hse n stay for the night....

then sat went to my bro hse n stay for the night

nw sun i'm back to my own hse..... wahahaha

every weekend so many hse to stay over but better than staying at my own hse n do nth....

just some photos taken at genting...... enjoy.......

taken from my hotel room.... see that i'm above the mountain n clouds.... haha...

My new sunglass.... wahahaha..... with my cute little nephew....

Mi n my nephew again.... isn't he so cute with that pose.... hehe....

In the themepark..... the start of the thrill rides..... wheeeeeeeeeee

erm.... but i guess this is not consider as a thrill ride though.... -_-

wat a great view!!!!!!!! yipee!!!!!!

My super cute little nephew... SHAUN!!!

2005-09-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

I feel a distance btw us..... i duno y i keep having this kind of feelings....... its been bothering for a very long time n so far only 1 person know abt it......... i duno its whether i'm too childish or too sensitive........ i feel jealous........

hiaz.... y so many things are happening at the same time........ i dun like it.........

2005-09-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

hiaz.....

i don't know why i feel this way...... i tot it would not affect me but i still can't control... i don't understand why......... its a strange feeling but i'm very sad!!! i did not know that i have fall so deep into the hole until i found out the truth........

2005-09-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yipee!!! A great weekend!!!

Ytd, my bro treat me n my mum to Genki to eat....my bro said that its a reward for me for getting gd results, so...... i ate lots of salmon n all kinds of sushi... Yummy!!! :) hehe.... after that we went to watch the Myth!! great show!! the show is different from Jackie chan's previous movie... its a totally new n special show..... the most special thing is that they speak all kind of language including Cantonese, Chinese, English, Indian n Korean!!

today, my mum, mi, sis, bro-in-law n nephew went to JB.... we went there to eat dim sum... its ok la not really fantastic... after that we went to Holiday inn n city sq to shop... my sis bought a bag for me!! only S$15.... cheap right... i don't dare to buy other stuff coz my 2nd sis is HK nw n will surely buy alot of stuff.......... then, we drove to Kukup to eat seafood.... it took us 1 n 1/2 hr to reach there.... -_-" but the seafood is marvellous!!!!!!!!!!!! much much much better than those restaurant in S'pore!!! we ate Sea mantis prawn, cereal prawn, thai chicken, baby sotong, kang kong n mussels!!! yummy!! i luv the chicken n baby sotong!!! not just that the food is nice but the atmosphere is great... we sat beside the sea n watch the sunset........ so romantic... haha...

really enjoy my weekend!! but tmr gona work again.... hiaz....

2005-09-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

today suppose to be my last day of work but in the end my mgr extend it again so next week i'm back to work......... hehe...... it means more income.......

anyway results are out today...... very happy with my results... my family are very satisfied with it.. gt some rewards.....
-my mum say that she will treat me
-my bro gona reward me... haha...... so happy!!!
-then i gona go genting with my sis n she pay for the hotel n stuff...........
-my 2nd sis n dad currently at hk bought alot of stuff for me.......
so yeah!! i'm very happy n fortunate to have such a great family.....hoho

anyway its was during lunch time when i receive my results... so guiqi n i went bento house to eat n then bought new zealand ice cream to eat.......yes!! we pamper ourselves for achieving the results we want!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!

weekend is here!!!!!!!! gona enjoy myself le..........

I'm finally back!!

2005-09-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone...

I know that i have not update my blog for a very long time.. hehe... so sorry.. coz i'm too lazy to type.... :P

Anyway too many things had happened but i not gona to elaborate la.. so ma fan... Just came in to type some rubbish lor...

nw i'm working in a bank at raffles place.. its located at level 46.. this is the first time i went to such high level lor..... the view is so nice and when its rain it looks like snow........... wow!!! the job is basically simple la... but sad to say tmr is my last day!! *sob sob* need to find another job again but i'm very tired n lazy to work le... i did not have a break since my exams........ oh....

Oh ya... hi to all TP students!! tmr results are out... so good luck to everyone n myself.. i'm so nervous nw.. hope i will score well this time......... hehe

lastly, just to show everyone wat clare had done for it... i like it alot...... haha..........

2005-07-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

Yipeeee!!

went to watch SUPERSTAR live at mediacorp today!! so many ppl came n alot of them were sitting on the steps.... but for me.... luckily that my sis booked place for us so i'm quite close to the stage!!! wahahaha!!!

the show is great!!! but the recording is so tiring coz it make us scream so many times.... actually what u all see on the TV is fake de.... e.g. the standing up--its all planned by the mediacorp ppl lor......

today the competition is that each one will sing 1 slow song n 1 fast song... no dual....

anyway, results are as follow....

M1-Jason- 31
M2-Weicong-35.5
M3-Jun Yang-39
M4-Wei Jian-38
M5-Weilian-36.5

Jason really sang very lousy... getting worse n worse lor... so disappointed with him... hiaz..

Weicong not bad.. he gt the superstar look.... but i dun really support him... hehe

Jun yang very gd!! he sang very well..... but he only gt one pro... he's abit too short.. i guess hes only 167cm... -_-"

Wei Jian sang lousy too... wonder y he gt high marks even though he sang badly???!!! coz hes the only who dance the best.... he won by that part lor.... -_-" but his voice really not gd at all......

Weilian... for yr info... i'm his fans... wahahaha!!! he sang very very well tonight... he improved so much!!! i almost cry when he sing the first song!!! so great man!!!!!!!!!!!! n he's very friendly n quite relaxed on stage even though he can't see........... wow!!!!

rmb to watch tmr superstar!!!! muz watch.... hahahaha.......

2005-07-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

finally, i'm back..............

term test is over n this week should be my term break................ but then.................... hiaz.....

for this whole week i stayed in sch lab from ard 8 plus till sometimes 7++/ 8++/ 9++ pm...... just to rush out my cas project..... we redo it today but then we only spent ard half a day to complete everything n its done nice n neat!! haha... finally!! so happy lor!! i'm lack of slp lor.... so tired. although cas is almost done but i still have pca n law project... n also 5 tutorials still haven started yet... i'm only left with 2 days to finish up everything!!!!! oh no!!! i did not enjoy the break at all..................

today is eilin's bdae... happy bdae!!! haha... celebrate her bdae ytd at kbox.. gave her a surprise... halfway while singing, suddenly the happy bdae song pop out from the screen n the kbox staff brought in the cake lor.... so sweet right!!! haha..... the cake is so delicious lor... haha........... but then, after kbox all of us went back sch to do our cas project again!!!! hiaz... so sian............

i think that's all le la.......... been very busy!! i guess i won't update that much le!!! byeeeee....

2005-06-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

ok... lets review the past few days events......................................................

Fri(17/6)
went to clare hse after sch.... was suppose to study but we ended up watching shutters........... the show is so scary....... n clare owaes lie to me that some scenes are not scary n made me see.... i saw the ghosts smiling..... err..... but we were laughing thru the show lor.... contradiciting right.... anyway, clare took pics of our horror face...............

(that's me.......ugly pic but luckily the pic is not clear)

(that's clare.... ugly.... like the ghost in shutters.... she practically cover herself for the whole show...... she did not see the ghosts face at all lor -_-")

sat(18/6)
clare n i went to airport n study..... at one pt.... i was so bored that i start playing with her hp camera.......

that's all.... actually i took alot but most of them are blur pic.... so left with these........ clare, pls feel honoured that my pic is in yr hp....... yr hp has too little pic le... so i help u fill up the space... c i so gd to u....... haha...

after studying, we went to bugis..... took neoprints......

(c she even act cute with my poor tb.... aiyo)

(yr head is so big..... haha.... not proportionate to yr body... alien!!!)

(clare, yr pose is so strange.... trying to act cute.... huh....)

(dirty fellow..... wanna kiss me)

enough of neoprints, after that we went to a dessert shop named "ah qiu"..... its my shop.... haha.......

(i'm eating honeydew sago.... delicious)

(that's clare again.... duno y i owaes ended up gg out with her. so sian......... n she complained to me abt the dessert n she said next time she will order "honeydew sago without honeydew n coconut milk n with more ice" strang person)

ok... that's all the review... haha........... will update soon!!

2005-06-14T19:36:00.000+08:00

i forgot to write abt sin's bdae which was on June 10!!!

its was a very special n memorable day for her......... coz we spent lots of times in preparing her presents...............

1) pink bikini--> too bad i can't go sentosa n see her wear it but clare say she only dare to wear it under her t-shirt -_-"

2) a bottle of stars--> we gt a milk bottle from kiddy palace instead.... its so cute with a bee hive as the cover.... hoho...

3) a bdae blog--> special right..... we gt lots of ppl to write the post n i oso upload photos taken from sec 1 till nw... hehe.....

u think its very special till nw.... but the surprise its not over yet............... hehe..........

4) a QLX album--> its not the Qi li xiang by Jay chou. we name the 7 of us as QLX lor.... so this album contain songs sang by us.... haha..... we spent lots of times in recording it lor n everyone was so nervous during the recording n we sacrifice our voice to sing for sin...... haha...... but its really a great experience for us...... so sweet right.............

i was so touched when preparing the presents for her...... i mean when will u ever receive a bdae blog or even an album sang by yr frenz...... but clare is the one who come up with these ideas n i suppose to help her do la................

i'm so glad i hv such a happening n caring group of frenz........... what a great memory for all of us not just sin!!!!

luv QLX.................. muackzz

2005-06-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

i'm so crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On friday(10/6/2005), i went to watch JJ campus concert at TP!!! the performance was excellent, awesome, great!!!! eilin n i screamed during his performance.... high right!!! the best part is he came up to the audience and shake hands with the people..... guess what??!! of coz he shook my hands!!! hohohoho............ the best part is he almost trip while shaking my hands so he kinda pull my hands.............. haha..... which means i get to hold his hands a little longer than the others!!!!!!!!!! YIPEE!!!! eilin oso shook his hands n we were so happy like crazy ppl!!!! -_-" JJ is so cute when he smile!! JJ is so fit n tall!! i'm fell so deeply in luv with him!!!

the exciting part is not over lor............

on sat(11/6/2005), i went to 933 concert at ngee ann city!!! the show was of coz great!! there were FIR, ENERGY, JJ, Tanya, Ah sang, Zhang dong liang n Cai cun jia!!! the exciting part is not that i gt to watch their performance...... but its that i get to shake hands with Shu Wei from ENERGY n the guitarist from FIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god!!! i'm gg so crazy!!! they are so tall n suai!!!!! Energy is so suai n cute lor while they dance!!! but too bad Ah di is leaving them le..... so sad!!! but i will still support them de!!! Jia you!!!

its so great to shake hands with my idols!!!!! this is the first time lor..... no wonder so many ppl are willing to chase after their idols!!!!! i'm gg to dream of them le..... bye!!! hehee.....

2005-06-10T12:30:00.000+08:00

hiaz.... these few days so many things had happened!!

first, i went to queue up for JJ concert tickets.... oh my god!! so many people!! its so hot, smelly, squezzy etc etc................. i lost my appetie coz of that lor...... yian sin!!! u owe me a great treat n make sure u rmb me for yr life hor!!!! haha....

secondly, its sin's bdae!!! clare, tricia n i call sin at 12am....... but sin was not at home, she was still outside celebrating her bdae.... so the 3 of us had a conference from 12 to 1 plus.... but in the end, tricia gave up n went to slp so left me n clare..... finally sin came home n we gave her the bdae blog address............... she said she was touched n feel like crying.... hahahahah.... i'm so happy coz its our aim to give her memorable bdae lor...........................................................................

sin wrote a post on that blog..... i juz read it!! n i feel so happy n touch coz she said its the best bdae she ever had..... i feel like crying......... -_-"

i really hope she enjoy this bdae coz we really neglect her bdae celebration in the previous years..... hope this year will compensate her!!!!! Sin!!! more surprise coming to u...... its not an end yet!!!! hahahahaha..................

oh ya!! i watching JJ concert at TP with sin, florine, eilin n peishan later..... yipee!!!!!!!

2005-05-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

Today went to cut my hair with teresa at one of the neighbourhood hair salon...... wanted to cut at super cut but too expensive... -_-" so went to the neighbourhood salon instead......

my hair is so short nw, can't tied.... and my fringe too.... its only till the eyebrow..... but i like my fringe... hehe..... but the rest of the hair is too short.... because it make the whole hair look like abit bloated up..... but no choice... cut already..... anyway, after about 1-2 weeks, the hair will settle and it will be better.... hehe.....

then, today is the first day of Year 2 in TP!!! the lectures are ok so far.... still can understand.... but i'm starting to get tired during the next half of the Legal Aspects of Business lecture.... the lecturer talk very fast.... -_-" but so far so good!!! but there's tutorial already... sian ah....

got to do my tutorial...... bye..... update soon!!

2005-05-21T23:39:00.000+08:00

Yipee!! today went out with QLX..... all of them turn up which is a rare occassion except that sin is late for 1 hr plus.....

anyway, we went to far east for dinner.... we ate tricia's favourite gong bao ji ding fan...... after that, we decided to go esplanande to take photos....

we took quite a number of photos.... with some very funny pose.. haha.... then, tricia help our camera man who is chee wei to take a photo with all our bags hanging on his hands.... oh my god!! its so funny!!! hahaha................

then, sin, clare, mao n florine went home.... the rest of us walk to clarke quay..... we were passing by this bridge n was wondering why is the bridge close.... suddenly, we heard a loud bang like explosion.... we were shocked.... but guess what....?? its a firework!!!!! oh my god!! this is the first time i'm so close to the firework and they are beautiful!!! its beyond description......... wow!!!!!

i gona upload the photos... once teresa send it to me......

getting tired.... sian.... school starting in 2 days times...... lots of projects coming up.... -_-"

2005-05-14T12:12:00.000+08:00

wow!! ytd, i had a great day with my pri sch frenz at the downtown east chalet...... although, not all the ppl turn up, its nevertheless exciting, fun n memorable gathering......

the most interesting part is when we are playing cards.... we had lots of fun because most of the time we are disturbing sijie..... she don't like ppl to touch her shoulder but we don't care n keep on touching it and we like to copy the way she talk...... haha...... this is the only game that i was laughing so hard as i was playing........... hahahaha

then, come the bbq part..... we had fun too.... we were chatting along and i come up with a nickname for sijie which is Auntie June!!!!! haha..... because she is born in june and she is older than us...... and she like to call ppl xiao mei..... thus, the nickname suits her lots...... haha...

everyone ate alot..... we were continuing eating till midnight...... i love the chicken wings!!! then, after that we went into the chalet room and started to take lots of photos....... esp with qian yu n jess...... qian ya taught us alot of different type of pose.... haha.... i will upload the photo when hwee li sent to me....

so that's abt it ba...... i feel so great to be with them again.... :)

2005-05-12T13:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a busy day........

met eilin at orchard for shopping.... we went far east and hereen. eilin bought a few clothes but i bought nothing.... :p after that, we went paragonin search for some food. in the end i bought the cheese crackers at 7-11.....

after shopping, we took 14 back...... because i'm going to clare's hse for a swim..... but i waited at the bus stop for her for about 1 hour..... :( the swim is intensive... we swim about 40 times in 1 hour.... clare say its only about 10 laps in normal pool size... but then, to me its already very intensive.......

after the swim, clare wanted to do cheese tarts so i stayed and help her..... mostly, i help to stir the mixture...... make me sweat because its very hot in her kitchen..... -_-" actually the tarts are quite easy to do because no need to bake just refrigerate...... but its late by the time we put the tarts to refrigerate so i did not get a chance to taste it.... but clare say its nice.... hope she will leave some for me.... hehe..........

oh!!! tmr there's a chalet at downtown east for my pri sch's gathering..... see everyone tmr!!!

that's about it.... update soon............ cheers!!!

2005-05-08T11:00:00.000+08:00

today is Mother's Day.... just want to wish all mothers a Happy Mother's Day!!!!

yesterday, was my second sis's graduation day!!! yeah!! she finally graduated, felt so happy for her!! we went to Ritz Carlton at 9 plus...... wow...... the people there are so friendly and professional, and the hotel look very grand..... i watch the whole ceremony with my parents and it so touching that i almost tear for her because i'm just too happy for her that she had come through all the obstacles and finally got her degree!!!! anyway, the most touching part is when everyone throw their hat into the sky............. after that, we took lots of photos about 50 plus.... wow!!

anway, my bro in law came for the graduation but was in a bad mood so his face black black de.... then call him to take photo he also very reluctant... in the end, make my dad angry and told us not to bother about him.... make me very guilty because my eldest sis is squeezed in between them..... but luckily, did not spoilt the whole graduation.....

then, we went to suntec city BK for a drink because we are too thristy from all those photo taking..... but my bro in law did not go...... after chatting for a while, we went to crystal jade restaurant for our early mother's day celebration..... a great dinner!!!! after dinner, we went to eat Yami Yogurt, its delicious!!!! after that, we went shopping and chat along the way... its been a long time since we chat and shop together....

2005-05-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

Sad.......................

why is it that when something happened, they will put all the blame on one person? aren't they too selfish?? is it all my fault to just cause my sis com to get virus when i was surfing the net.... is it fair to me?????????

maybe some of u duno what i'm talking abt.... so let me say in brief... that time, i was using my sis's com to surf the net and half way through, the computer desktop became a black screen and stated YOU ARE IN DANGER!!! ok... it means the com is infected by virus.... i was so terrified and nervous and scared.... i could not slp tt night becoz i know that my bro in law will definitely scream at me.....

at first, he did not scream at me becoz i used sms to inform him that the com is infected by virus... but you know what he reply-->YOU BETTER CLEAR THIS MESS PROPERLY, IF NOT I WILL LOSE MY TEMPER ON YOU!!!!! so i went to his hse after work to try to clear the mess but after several scanning, the virus is still there.... but the com is still perfectly alright with no programs lost or whatever.... i called my bro to ask n he told me to bring th cpu to our hse n he will do it.... but guess what my bro in law said--> IF U WANT, U BRING IT HM BY BUS YRSELF, I WILL NOT DRIVE IT TO YR HSE!!!

on tue, florine lend me a anti virus program so i went to my sis hse to pass the cd to them saying that i will come tmr to download the program... but my so impatient bro in law went to download the program and duno what happened, the whole com crashed!!!!!

so, my sis called today and said that actually my bro in law don't want to celebrate mother's day with us just because he is angry with me for making the com crashed.... wth!!! y is he so selfish?? maybe i was the one to cause the com to be infected by virus but then was i the one who cause the com to crashed??????????? how could he push all the blame to me...........................

the most shocking thing is my sis oso blame me for being irreponsible coz i did not stay over that night to download the program.... but i already told them i will do it the next day coz its too late n i did not tell my mum that i not going hm for dinner.....

after the call, i cried till nw while typing this............................ :(

i'm just 17 and i'm not an IT expert...... how can they push all blames & responsibilities on me!!! nobody knows how much pressure i'm holding nw...... some ppl may think what is the big deal with that virus but then they will nv understand what is it to have a bro in law like that!!!!!!

but tmr will be my 2nd sis graduation day n it will be a big day for her!! hope that i will control my temper tmr n will not quarrel with my bro in law!!!!!!!!!

i'm in a very bad mood nw... but i still have to go n watch a dance with my poly frenz..... actually i don't feel like gg but then i had already bought the ticket so no choice.................

i gtg nw..... bye!!

2005-04-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

today, i walk to my brother's house which took me about half an hour.....the weather is very hot which made me perspire alot.....

after that, i went to meet clare at whitesands... she said that her sim card kena virus but when we went to M1 shop and let the person check, it became alright again... think her hp is like her owner(both abit siao le... hehe.... :p)

then, i went to clare's house and started to fold stars because i don't know how to. so, she taught me but in the end, i only know how to fold but don't know how to squeeze it to become the star shape.... haha.....

i look through her photo album and its mostly her childhood photo.... while browsing through, i laugh till my tears drop...... hahahahahahahaha.............. when she was young, her look was very funny and especially her action.... oh my god!!! just thinking about it, i'm going to laugh again... if anyone have a chance to go her house, please request to take a look at her album... u will defintely laugh till u drop.......... her looks and hair style did not change since she was young till sec 4 except that she had grow taller.......... haha... oh.. one more thing she look exactly like her mother...... haha

i think i better stop here, if not clare going to kill me............ :p

2005-04-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

oh.... being bored for these few days...... just lay around the house, watch tv and do housework.... i have been rotting at home for a week..... and there will be 3 more days to go before i'm going to start work again.... now, i'm trying to find another weekend job to make full use of my time. maybe be a flyer distributor... haha.... but seriously, that's a easy job and it won't be so tiring too.....

oh ya... i watched a vcd recently. its a koren movie named "cool guy". the main actor is "song cheng xian". i fell in love with this show deeply(maybe only the actor)...... the show is very funny and touching..... song cheng xian is so handsome and charming in this show(previously he is not very handsome). most importantly, he is very cool and love & care for his gf deeply.... i think i'm crazy about him.....within two days, i watched this show twice already... i think i'm going to show it again.... hahahaha....

2005-04-19T20:09:00.000+08:00

hiaz.... had a nightmare yesterday night...... actually i want to type out the dream<>, but i can't because i'm too scared.... i can't make myself go through all the scenes again.... i'm scared.... there's ghost in my dreams.... and it happened in the lift... guess that i would not be able to take lift anymore because i'm afriad my nightmare would come true....

actually, i've been having nightmare almost everyday for the past few months.... and guess what all my nightmare includes ghosts..... except for one concering my whole family which made me cry... the nightmares are getting clearer n clearer to me.... last time, i could not see the ghosts, i can only see the ghosts chasing after me..... but recently, i can see the ghosts' faces clearly.. but luckily ytd nightmare, i forced myself not to see the ghost's face but heard my dad said its very very very grossy...... but its all in the dreams... but its enough to scare me till now......

good/sweet dreams are impossible for me and it had not happen to me for the past months.... what i had are only nightmares..... had i done something wrong that the god is punishing me by giving nightmares almost every night, making me feel uneasy and could not sleep well..... anyone can tell me....

someone please help me... i feel so helpless right now... i feel like crying out... but my parents are around & i do not want them to know.....................................................

2005-04-18T16:27:00.000+08:00

last sat, went out with Qi li xiang..... all turn up except for our poor mao mao who have to look after her dad.... but nevertheless, we still include her in our conversation... hehe.....

we went shopping at bugis.... saw an anklet.... regretted not buying it... maybe i will go down again to buy it for my sis..... anyway, we took neoprints.. yippee!! i took 2 times... one, with all of them... 2nd, with clare n sin.... its the first time that the 6 of us took neoprints together... it was so squeezy.... but anyway its fun.... den with clare and sin, its only the 2nd times we took together... i love the pics alot..... below are some of it.......

2005-04-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

Heeheee....today only work for half day... but its tiring enough because we had to carry all the goods from one room to another.... i really dislike my new supervisor... errrrrrrrrr. she always come into our room to check us(how many have you all finish? can complete all the goods by friday right?) that is what she say everytime she come into the room... oh my god! i heard these sentences like few hundreds times already!! Not just that, she even time how long i need to take to complete testing one phone!! she is tooooooooo much!! luckily, no need to work for the next few days because the goods are not coming in so soon... that means i can stop hearing her nonsense and take a break... Yipeee!!

anyway, went to do this personality test and i got the following results... go to http://home.mn.rr.com/ande2713/quiz/quiz.html if you wanna try the test.....

2005-04-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

Don't know what to update right now.... so, i upload this friendship poem found in the net..... its meaningful n i wants to dedicate it to all my dearest, beloved friends...... Luv ya!!

Standing by,
All the way.
Here to help you through your day.

Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.

Catching your tears,
When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.

Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend.

2005-04-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back home.... feel so sleepy right now because today was a busy day....

first, i woke at 7.15am( i slp at 2.30am...-_-) to go to market to help my mum carry all the food and stuff.... wow! my hands are so tired. actually i don't really know what my parent bought but its too tooo toooo heavy....

anyway, at the market, we saw one of my relatives.... guess what??!! my relative just gt a stroke but had recovered slightly, with his hands still unable to hold things... i felt that life are so fragile.... sometimes, disaster just happened on you or even your family n close friends, without giving you any notice.... this make me think of my dad(i'm not cursing him...) because he is already very old and has leg problem but he still insist on working which had caused his leg problem to worsen.... no matter how we talk n persuade him, he still refuse to listen.. hiaz... today, he finally announced that he gona stop working from tmr onwards. oh, i felt so relieved because i'm just afraid that his leg may give way at any time.... (choy!!!!!) but its just my worry......

ok.. then, around 2.30pm, we went cemetery to pray... wow!! so many people and its so smoky.... most importantly, its veryyyyyyyyyy HOT!!! we were all sweating.... luckily, my eldest sis went so i can sit in her car... if not, i need to sit behind my dad's lorry where there is no air-con... -_-" but we gt lots of delicious food... hehe.... though its for praying but after that, we can bring it home to eat so its means sumptous dinner...... haha.....

finally, now home sweet home.... hehe... but tmr still have to work.... :(

update soon.......

2005-04-09T20:39:00.000+08:00

hiaz... i'm so bored right now... in the morning, i went compass point for breakfast but quarrelled with my sis while shopping... so both of us are in a bad mood... however, quarrelling is our daily routine because after about 2 hours, we are talking to each other nicely... duno wat are we up to... -_-"

anyway, my sis went to bishan to see her idol, Mayday, leaving me alone with my parent.... nothing to do lor.... just surf net and watching tv the whole day... so sian... my friends are either working or studying... nobody can accompany me... hiaz.... what a boring day!!

to my beloved friends--> if u happen to read this, pls ask me to go out if u are free.....

tmr, i think i will be extremely tired because i'm going cemetery to pray... hope tmr will be a sunny day because last year when we went there its was raining heavily and in the end we were totally wet and it make me feel so disgusting and uncomfortable... then, monday i still need to work again... i'm start to feel sick of this job because i have been doing the same thing over and over again... but the money motivate me to continue and work... if not, i would have long quit the job..... how i wish i'm born in a rich family and do not need to worry about my school fee, daily expenses, etc etc......

hiaz.... i think enough of my complaining... till now i still do not know what i can do.... so BORING!!!

2005-04-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

Yipee!! my horror is over... my results are out... this time i had done much better than the last sem..... Hurray!! was shocked to see my results esp MBS (computer subject)..... really very very very very happpppppppppy!!!

MBS-->Z
Biz stat-->Z
Econs-->Z
OB-->B+
FA2-->A
WaterTech-->B+

so my family went to chinatown--Yum Cha, to eat dinner to celebrate....... hehehe... wat a delicious n "happy" meal.... we had dim sum. prawn, crab n shark fin!! Wow!! Enjoy!

till now, my heart is still smiling because the results are finally up to my expectations... maybe some ppl will say that i not easily content with my results but still i have my own aim and level of satisfaction... so as long as you are happy, don't care about how others think about u.....

ok... tt's all for today... i gona watch Guess, Guess, Guess le.... i think tonight i will have a sweet, sweet, sweet dream...

Sweet dream to everyone too!!!!

2005-04-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

The blog is not completed yet but i will try to complete it as soon as possible. pls give some comments because its my first time changing the blog skin... so have a nice day!!!

2005-04-07T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hiaz.... the blog have been dead for so many months... just because i'm too lazy to update....
but now, i'm too bored and have nothing to do so i changed the blog skin.... hehe...

oh ya!! rmb to give yr comments abt my new skin....

For the past few months, many things had happened but its all the past already so i'm not going to elaborate...

For now, its holiday again!!! Hurray!! but did not really enjoy because i'm working now. Doing the same job again---- its so boring, i have been doing the same thing all over again n again... luckily eilin is working wit me so still not bad.

As for tmr, results are coming out.. Oh my god!! i'm so scared n nervous right now... its gona be a disaster... wish me luck!! thank you!!

All e best to others who are receiving their results too!!!

Update soon!! (hopefully...hehe)

Music.........Jay.........Music

2004-12-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

today as usual went to work.... i was getting used to my 2 new frenz who r working wit me.... they r quite fun too.... we were laughing all e while..... i'm enjoying my work.... haha.... today i knock off earlier coz we had completed our work but my supervisor is gd enough to allow us to write our time sheet at 6pm as usual lor...... den tmr work at 2 pm coz e goods r not ready yet... YEAH!!! dis means tt i can wake up at a later time...... hehe.......

after work i went to clare's hse..... her mum bought dinner for me.... thanks alot lor made me so paiseh coz they pay for my dinner lor..... and oso its not e 1st time le.... but nvm la.... after tt clare showed me e videos tt she download tt r showing jay lor.... at first i'm not too interested but den after watching, i find tt jay has a sense of humour too..... haha.... n tt his joke is so lame tt make me laugh so hard lor.... it made me like him abit more.... i like his music talent n sense of humour but not his look leh.... y can't he look better leh?? its such a ptiy..... but anyway after tt clare play Canon in D on her keyboard.... everytime when she play i will suan her tt she is slow lor but den dis time round she improved alot lor.... ahppy for her but den can u pls learn other songs too or else it will be boring to hear e old, same song over n over again!!! haha.....

she oso taught e 1st few notes of Canon in D..... its so difficult lor... i dun even noe where is Do Re Mi etc.... n i finally realise tt my fingers r so stiff lor.... no wonder ppl owaes say tt we shld start learning piano at a young age to prevent e fingers to become stiff...... hiaz.... e notes n everything make me so blur n confused lor.... but luckily i still managed to learn e 1st few notes....... haha.....

i'm going to learn e whole song of it..... den ask clare to learn e song An jing!!! i love dis song...... but SLY totally spoilt e song tonight during e s'pore idol final!!!! i dun like sly at all... he's so ugly like a ah beng n oso he sing so bad.............. oh my god.... can't imagine y so many ppl like him.... YYY!!!! haha.... i better stop talking bad abt sly or else his fans will come n kill me...... haha...

i'm going crazy abt piano lor..... i wanna learn piano..... i wanna find a guy who noe how to play piano n is music talented n gd looking..... haha..... i wanna send all my future children to learn paino.... haha..... i'm day dreaming again..... i'm going crazy again.........................................

An auntie day!!!

2004-11-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

today is a different sunday for me!! normally i will slp till noon.... but den today i woke up at 9.45am....very tired n slpy....

my parents are going for a one day tour to visit some temples in s'pore.... i was suprised when i heard tt they wanna go for dis tour coz last time my dad will say waste of $$ but nw its different.... its made me realise tt my parents r getting older lor.... its time for them to enjoy n relaxed... i felt scared n insecured coz i'm afraid tt they will leave me one day.... its not tt i'm cursing them or wat but its a fact tt they r nw 60 years old le.... i was wondering wat my life will be w/o them...........................................................................

but anyway it means tt my parents r not at home for a day so i need to replace my mother's role for a day.... oh my god!!! early in e morning i went to compass pt.... 1st i went to many shops in search for e newspaper tt my sis want den i went popular to buy pen for my sis again........ next i went library to borrow books.... its been a long time since i last borrow books but its juz tt i felt bored at home......... lastly went to cold storage to help my mum buy food.... such as pork, vege, etc............... its damn heavy.........

i felt tt both of my hands have become longer after dis shopping..... e bags of things tt i had bought had cause both of my hands n shoudlers to ache till nw..... *pain*

not juz tt.......... i still have to cook lunch for my sis n bro......... i really act like my mum lor..... till nw den i get to rest.......... so tiring so painful.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tt's all for today post.......... i wanna go n rest le.......... sian ah tmr still have to work...... :(